Sunday, June 26, 2011
Moving!
I am moving this page to a wordpress. Mostly, because I want to start blogging about things other than just my career. So follow me over! Thisamericanboyslife.wordpress.com
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Loosing Sleep
I just woke up. Can't sleep. I have to be up in 3 hours. I am just marking time, wishing I could get back every minute.
These next few weeks are going to feel like a whirlwind. There is so much going on, and so much to do. I can only seem to digest it one day at a time, for now. Our show is up and running, also it is the reason I have to wake up at such an ungodly hour. I have learned so much doing this show. It has resuscitated my lifeless artist within. That has been nice, needed. So I am using this show as a springboard to excite and motivate me in auditions, which look as though they are picking up in January.
Something about wee hours of the morning ignite such sentimentality within me. I can honestly say I am happy to not go home for Christmas, because I know if I did I would miss everyone all the more. That is what happened with Thanksgiving. It took me days to get over that funk. It is best to keep my head down right now, and plow ahead. It would be hard to go through that want again. I do have some nice things to look forward towards in the new year. I am planning a cabaret, filled with friends and lively music. I need to be more dilligent in preparation for it, but it is slowly coming along. I have some fun people to meet and talk about future prospects and auditions will be in full swing.
Now that I think about it, there is so much that will happen in the new year. One of my best friends is getting married. I will go to some weddings. I will work in some theatres. I will have all sorts of new experiences. This new year should be pretty darn interesting, now that I think about it.
On my walk to the train today I felt like I was going to explode from... I don't even know how to describe the feeling. I was thinking over how many things I have done. I was thinking about being on the needy side of a relationship, and on the side of ending a relationship. I was thinking about all of the emotions I have been through and everyone goes through. I was thinking about all the experiences I have acquired. Just within my life already, I have done and felt so much. It was so exciting. It made me happy and anxious for what is coming. It made me feel as though I wanted to tell everyone how exciting our lives are, but instead I just walked to the train platform with a ridiculous grin.
So right now I am happy, healthy, busy, and sentimental (though I think that is mostly because of the wee hours in the morning).
Regardless, I just listened to this recording again and I cannot help but put a video of it up on here. This song is so beautiful, so simple, and so meaningful. It choked me up a bit. I do miss so many people, and home especially. But what can I say? It's not my fault I have such an amazing family. I can't help but feel this way. Plus in due time, I'll be seeing you.
These next few weeks are going to feel like a whirlwind. There is so much going on, and so much to do. I can only seem to digest it one day at a time, for now. Our show is up and running, also it is the reason I have to wake up at such an ungodly hour. I have learned so much doing this show. It has resuscitated my lifeless artist within. That has been nice, needed. So I am using this show as a springboard to excite and motivate me in auditions, which look as though they are picking up in January.
Something about wee hours of the morning ignite such sentimentality within me. I can honestly say I am happy to not go home for Christmas, because I know if I did I would miss everyone all the more. That is what happened with Thanksgiving. It took me days to get over that funk. It is best to keep my head down right now, and plow ahead. It would be hard to go through that want again. I do have some nice things to look forward towards in the new year. I am planning a cabaret, filled with friends and lively music. I need to be more dilligent in preparation for it, but it is slowly coming along. I have some fun people to meet and talk about future prospects and auditions will be in full swing.
Now that I think about it, there is so much that will happen in the new year. One of my best friends is getting married. I will go to some weddings. I will work in some theatres. I will have all sorts of new experiences. This new year should be pretty darn interesting, now that I think about it.
On my walk to the train today I felt like I was going to explode from... I don't even know how to describe the feeling. I was thinking over how many things I have done. I was thinking about being on the needy side of a relationship, and on the side of ending a relationship. I was thinking about all of the emotions I have been through and everyone goes through. I was thinking about all the experiences I have acquired. Just within my life already, I have done and felt so much. It was so exciting. It made me happy and anxious for what is coming. It made me feel as though I wanted to tell everyone how exciting our lives are, but instead I just walked to the train platform with a ridiculous grin.
So right now I am happy, healthy, busy, and sentimental (though I think that is mostly because of the wee hours in the morning).
Regardless, I just listened to this recording again and I cannot help but put a video of it up on here. This song is so beautiful, so simple, and so meaningful. It choked me up a bit. I do miss so many people, and home especially. But what can I say? It's not my fault I have such an amazing family. I can't help but feel this way. Plus in due time, I'll be seeing you.
Monday, December 6, 2010
Holiday
A lot has happened since I last posted. I suppose that is one of the reasons I haven't been frequent enough about this. I also choose to keep a lot private... but I have some time on my hands now.
Things are different now. I was able to go home for the holidays, which was amazing. Going home for the holidays was a breath of fresh air, and honestly, it was really hard to leave. We had a bonfire, went to my uncle's house and had a huge time out by bogue sound, headed up to the new mountain house and I really got to enjoy a lot of things in a small amount of time. It was a great trip.
Now that I am back, I am slowly easing into life in NYC. I have moved to Washington Heights into an amazing apartment with Katie. I couldn't ask for a more beautiful place, and the best roommates. I have steady jobs. I am in a show. I have some interesting prospects laid out for me. However, I can't seem to get around how daunting this place feels since going home. There are so many actors or wanting to act in this city, coming to this city. I am overwhelmed by all of it. I am going to keep my nose to the grindstone, and be patient with my class and with auditions, but at least for now I am a bit overwhelmed.
I decided when I went home that I will give New York 2 or 3 more years. I really enjoy living here, especially when I am not broke. But, if I am not able to accomplish what I want to accomplish up here, I think it will be time to move somewhere where I can act. I am certainly not giving up, and I am hopeful that things are picking up here for me. I just don't want to waste half of my life not doing what I want to do. There are other places to act, other theatres to join, other jobs to be had, and if I find myself in the same position I am in now, in 2 years, then it will be time to see what else is out there.
That is sort of where I am right now.
The lyrics,
"Someone is on your side, someone else is not"
keep resonating through my head. I have never been more aware of that, than now I think. I am having the hardest time figuring out who is and who is not on my side though. I think that is why those lyrics keep ringing through my head. I have no idea. Things are not as black and white as I would like them to be. So, because of this feeling, I started re-reading The Death of Socrates by Plato. I am hoping for some sort of inspiration between the pages.
Also this song has been on my mind, but specifically this version.
Things are different now. I was able to go home for the holidays, which was amazing. Going home for the holidays was a breath of fresh air, and honestly, it was really hard to leave. We had a bonfire, went to my uncle's house and had a huge time out by bogue sound, headed up to the new mountain house and I really got to enjoy a lot of things in a small amount of time. It was a great trip.
Now that I am back, I am slowly easing into life in NYC. I have moved to Washington Heights into an amazing apartment with Katie. I couldn't ask for a more beautiful place, and the best roommates. I have steady jobs. I am in a show. I have some interesting prospects laid out for me. However, I can't seem to get around how daunting this place feels since going home. There are so many actors or wanting to act in this city, coming to this city. I am overwhelmed by all of it. I am going to keep my nose to the grindstone, and be patient with my class and with auditions, but at least for now I am a bit overwhelmed.
I decided when I went home that I will give New York 2 or 3 more years. I really enjoy living here, especially when I am not broke. But, if I am not able to accomplish what I want to accomplish up here, I think it will be time to move somewhere where I can act. I am certainly not giving up, and I am hopeful that things are picking up here for me. I just don't want to waste half of my life not doing what I want to do. There are other places to act, other theatres to join, other jobs to be had, and if I find myself in the same position I am in now, in 2 years, then it will be time to see what else is out there.
That is sort of where I am right now.
The lyrics,
"Someone is on your side, someone else is not"
keep resonating through my head. I have never been more aware of that, than now I think. I am having the hardest time figuring out who is and who is not on my side though. I think that is why those lyrics keep ringing through my head. I have no idea. Things are not as black and white as I would like them to be. So, because of this feeling, I started re-reading The Death of Socrates by Plato. I am hoping for some sort of inspiration between the pages.
Also this song has been on my mind, but specifically this version.
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