Loosing Sleep

I just woke up. Can't sleep. I have to be up in 3 hours. I am just marking time, wishing I could get back every minute.
These next few weeks are going to feel like a whirlwind. There is so much going on, and so much to do. I can only seem to digest it one day at a time, for now. Our show is up and running, also it is the reason I have to wake up at such an ungodly hour. I have learned so much doing this show. It has resuscitated my lifeless artist within. That has been nice, needed. So I am using this show as a springboard to excite and motivate me in auditions, which look as though they are picking up in January.
Something about wee hours of the morning ignite such sentimentality within me. I can honestly say I am happy to not go home for Christmas, because I know if I did I would miss everyone all the more. That is what happened with Thanksgiving. It took me days to get over that funk. It is best to keep my head down right now, and plow ahead. It would be hard to go through that want again. I do have some nice things to look forward towards in the new year. I am planning a cabaret, filled with friends and lively music. I need to be more dilligent in preparation for it, but it is slowly coming along. I have some fun people to meet and talk about future prospects and auditions will be in full swing.
Now that I think about it, there is so much that will happen in the new year. One of my best friends is getting married. I will go to some weddings. I will work in some theatres. I will have all sorts of new experiences. This new year should be pretty darn interesting, now that I think about it.
On my walk to the train today I felt like I was going to explode from... I don't even know how to describe the feeling. I was thinking over how many things I have done. I was thinking about being on the needy side of a relationship, and on the side of ending a relationship. I was thinking about all of the emotions I have been through and everyone goes through. I was thinking about all the experiences I have acquired. Just within my life already, I have done and felt so much. It was so exciting. It made me happy and anxious for what is coming. It made me feel as though I wanted to tell everyone how exciting our lives are, but instead I just walked to the train platform with a ridiculous grin.
So right now I am happy, healthy, busy, and sentimental (though I think that is mostly because of the wee hours in the morning).
Regardless, I just listened to this recording again and I cannot help but put a video of it up on here. This song is so beautiful, so simple, and so meaningful. It choked me up a bit. I do miss so many people, and home especially. But what can I say? It's not my fault I have such an amazing family. I can't help but feel this way. Plus in due time, I'll be seeing you.