Mother, Mother Ocean

Yesterday was the first beach day I have had since coming to the city 9 weeks ago. It was well-replenishing. I am rereading The Artist's Way and it talks about how everyone, but especially artists need to refill their metaphysical, "well". It is a term instructing to replenish your creative resource. It is a really powerful analogy. The book suggests that you take yourself out on artist dates. These are outing you have to do on your own, and they can be whatever makes you happy, but it has to be something that you can do on your own. The book is phenomenal and really worth reading, if you are artist.
As I sat on the ocean's edge I realized that this incessant sound of the waves has really framed my life. This ocean has seen me for the entirety of my life. The ocean has seen some of my family's most joyous reunions. More than that it was there when the family started dwindling, and people started dying. The ocean was there as I grew up and it watched me as my interests grew along with my height. The ocean has been such a constant in my life.
Yesterday, more than anything, helped me realize that I can make it up here. Even when I want to quit, or mom is telling me I should come home, or I feel as though I am flippantly flailing my way through everything up here, the ocean steadied me. I will be able to survive up here, and more than I will be able to thrive and it will be absolutely beautiful.
This week has been a slow audition week, but that has given me a lot of time to look for jobs. I have an interview tomorrow, and I had 2 interviews on Monday. I am not sure anymore if I have a job at Roundabout anymore, just because of their lack of communication. So I am sure to find out soon enough. And one way or another I know Mama New York is going to open up the skies and come through for me. This is where I am meant to be for now, and I am finding my path and I am enjoying the journey the whole way.
Here is a song from the new cast of Hair. This show is beautiful. I have seen it 3 times now and it just gets more and more beautiful. This song is telling of my position I think.