I realize now I was sort of unclear and sporadic in my last post. My heart hurts. I am trying to pretend like it doesn't, but it does. I am trying to go on, but every now and then it hurts a little. This is causing me to write without a thought pattern.
First of all, I am contemplating whether or not I should move to Wilmington in January, or if I should stay in Asheville, or if I should just move up to NYC. I am also considering the repercussions of all of these actions. I have no idea what I want, for the first time in a long time. I imagine it is more of a choice between Wilmington and The City.
I never want to be in a relationship. This is the closest I think I have ever come, and they suck. They suck more than gefelta fish on Passover. Too much risk, vulnerability, and the recovery time is unknown/SUCKS.
Anyway here is a song... sort of what I have been thinking in my mind. It is Audra McDonald, so you know it is good.
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believe in yourself as much as i believe in you. soon you will know which path to take and soon you will climb from the pitfalls of a relationship that wasn't meant to be to the glory of a new one. just make it until tomorrow, one breath at a time, and make the most of today, for there is no day but today! *love* *HUGS!*
let's move to the city together... of course don't listen to me my goal in life is to be a professional gypsy and look where its gotten me....
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