The Start of Something New

You can laugh because who doesn't love a good High School Musical reference? However, this is something new, more or less. I haven't blogged in about 2 years, and I haven't ever blogged on important issues ever. So here is to something new. 

I honestly wanted to start this in about 3 months but this morning, about 15 minutes ago, I got impatient. This was meant to chronicle my times in New York City, when I move up in September. But why not chronicle now? I am in the last two weeks of college. The last two weeks, wow. It is still weird for me to imagine that within two weeks I will have a degree. So this is sort of the beginning of the end.

In two weeks I will be out of college, living my last summer at home, and carefully planning a huge move to a huge city. What could be more exciting? This last push to get out is the tricky part, something of which I find little motivation for at the moment, but rest assured it will get done.

Recently I started to question my move to NYC. I am graduating from college with a degree I don't like, with a degree that I could have done much better in had I focused. Instead I spent hours, probably months of my college career, looking for audition songs, monologues, reviewing anything I could get my hands on that had to do with musical theatre. I sort of took a deep breath this week to get my bearings. Am I good enough? Do I have what it takes? What does it take? What if you love something so much, more than anything, and you simply find out you could never do it due to lack of talent? So with that said, this was sort of a reevaluation of what I have been doing with my life, and understanding if it will actually bear any fruit whatsoever. To my suprise, I have a lot of close friends, new friends, and acquaintances who really believe in what I am doing. I am not sure if that is to say it is worth it, or I am justified. If anything it simply meant that I have people who believe in me, and that was really the tipping point for me. I guess I needed to see that other people some faint gleam of talent within me so that I could press ahead and get trained more, move to the city to audition more, and really work to achieve this goal.

So thanks to everyone, if anyone reads this, for being supportive and believing in me when I could not. I really cannot explain how lucky I am to have surrounded myself with such wonderful people. 

If anything I have learned from college I would say it is how to decipher which people are worth spending time with, and which people are not. I also learned how to take care of massive hangovers, crunch information into my brain overnight, write 30 page research papers on a simple lead or idea, and how to determine what food is stale in the caf. 

And I got a degree in it to prove myself.

So here we go, this is it. The start of something new.