Overcommitted?

I seem to be overcommitted. I sat down this afternoon, the first free one I have had all week, and I found that I am going to busy. Having two jobs, scheduling them around auditions, working with my rehearsal schedule, and filling in some semblance of a social life is hard. I am not really sure how real life works yet. This might be it? Constantly running from one thing to the next. Packing 8 outfits for all the places you have to be. Hoping you got the next destination you are suppose to be in correct and not confused. It is stressful.
I have been really lazy about auditions this week. I feel guilty, sort of. I didn't really do any research as to what I am missing out on this week, so I am sort of unsure as to what I missed and where the would-be guilt should be directed.
So I am sitting down now, and making this better. I am going to check out all of the auditions I am interested in this week. I have to see what my rehearsal schedule will be. Then I will schedule my work hours around all of that. The social life might dwindle a bit.
Things have been really good lately. As the weather gets cooler in the city I find myself getting more and more apprehensive. Don't get me wrong, it is absolutely beautiful weather we are having right now. It is just cold. I can't help but think of what is to come. I am going to hate the winter here. I will have to busy myself with even more things just to keep my mind off the unbearable cold.
I can't really complain at all though. I have met some really cool people lately. I am networking a bit more up here. And I have to say that I can't believe I have been exposed to some brilliant minds, some beautiful people, and some generous new friends. I am so lucky to have so many great people in my life right now. I think more than anything, human connections and friendships mean the most to me. I have been really lucky to have a great deal of that all around me as of late.
So the city sucks some days, and is absolutely beautiful on others. I dislike working jobs in which I feel as though I have no impact on the world or the human condition. I am not acting like I would enjoy. I mean I know I have a show right now, and I am really happy to have a show, but I would like something bigger.
I guess for now I need to be happy with what I have. I am learning to live the questions, and it is taking a lot of learning. For now, this is where I am. I am living and loving and happy about it.
Lately, I love Peter, Paul and Mary. Here is a reflection of that love.